heck

 Can I name a post heck? You bet i will.

Anyways, listening to this soundtrack of the shire. 

I'm just thinking of how I haven't updated this blog in forever, and how there was a pandemic, a few elections, a tiny recession, the rise and fall of a few things, and lots and LOTS of personal change in between...

but you know? i'm kind of impressed by my younger self. in a lot of ways, i think he played me better than i do ;0 my writing hasn't improved, so it feels like i'm picking it back up. he knew what was important. the only (ok, maybe not only) thing he probably should've done was watch that TV show!!

weird: i realized that it's like... one of my first being-alone times since forever??? one is always with other people (family! friends! roommates!) -- but how often are you with yourself for an extended period of time? Being alone gives you time to reflect, to think of all the things are green and growing in the world. Elsewhere, there is hunger and war; brutal things that have no place in the peace of your mind. The Shire is happiness; wherever you are, if something is peaceful and reminds you of home — there it is. Even when you venture into lands far away, or find yourself cast in a strange time, home is where u last left it... right?

anyways -- LAAAAAAA!!! I'm here. older. still not wise enough to finish this before 11 ;)

a girl, a sun, close-up sand, venice (beach)